Life......Or something like it....

Ok so it's been awhile since I posted something but every time I go to write I draw a blank... Kinda like I am now...

But here's what I've been up to working and going to school. Working part time at wells fargo 25 hours a week and trying to get 30-35 hours. So far I've managed to get 30 hours by working for people and staying later than my schedule shift.

And school I'm taking 2 classes Psychology and Enlgish which I feel I can get an A in both. They are going at a good pace for me.

I joined lifetime fitness which I feel is really nice, and I've gone 3 times since I joined on tuesday and I plan to up it to 6 times a week especially since I've gained 5 pounds randomly :-( which puts me further from my goal, now I have 20 pounds I have planned to loose by my 23rd birthday April 20th. I don't know if I can pull that of but its the plan...

Thats preety much it other than trying to figure out what I should get marcus for V-day, any ideas??????

I've also decided I will post a picture of myself or something I've been doing everytime I blog. Although I'm in my pj's still so this is just a photo I like of myself :-)

Free writing (EMO)

Since I was young. I've always been nervous about going to school, to the point that I literally got sick to my stomach the closer it got to school. When I got to school my stomach had been so twisted up I could barely think about anything but how sick I felt. The hardest part about high school for me was walking into the school and walking to my locker. Even though I was never with out friends I still felt anxiety, the anxiety to be back at school another day, to try to be social, to focus for 8 hours and not fall asleep, to find a table at lunch, to talk to my friends, to speak in class, to avoid my teachers when it was time to hand n homework that I hadn't done, to catching my bus home on time, to getting home and avoiding doing my homework, to wanting to just run away but not logically being able to and just wanting to SCREAM!!! Because I hated school, I hated homework, I hated home, and I hated my fake ass friend!

Weird dreams

3 am I can't sleep, isn't it weird how you can have a dream that feels real even physical pain and emotions???

I had one and I'm just now ready to go back to sleep... I will blog tomorrow just needed to relax...