Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Free writing (EMO)

Since I was young. I've always been nervous about going to school, to the point that I literally got sick to my stomach the closer it got to school. When I got to school my stomach had been so twisted up I could barely think about anything but how sick I felt. The hardest part about high school for me was walking into the school and walking to my locker. Even though I was never with out friends I still felt anxiety, the anxiety to be back at school another day, to try to be social, to focus for 8 hours and not fall asleep, to find a table at lunch, to talk to my friends, to speak in class, to avoid my teachers when it was time to hand n homework that I hadn't done, to catching my bus home on time, to getting home and avoiding doing my homework, to wanting to just run away but not logically being able to and just wanting to SCREAM!!! Because I hated school, I hated homework, I hated home, and I hated my fake ass friend!


Unbreakable said...

Thats a lot of hate you got there. Hope that has changed over the years

Abby Kihano said...

i hope free writing this... made you feel better :]

and it's alright to let your emotions out!

school freaked me out just the same. well not the same same but kinda. i still didn't like school. ehh, but who doesn't?!

Ebony said...

Yea it has changed over the years I don't feel that way as much now

Abby Kihano said...

thank you for the comment! i think my friend should be herself then! that's one of the good advises i got. the guy should like her for her flaws and all! :]