Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Growing up...


BTW pick is completely irrelevant... Growing up changes a lot of my perspective... So I have a confession here it is...

I was a mean girl in high school mainly; I don't know if you've seen the movie "mean girls" but that was me and my friends and people literally called us that! I've changed don't worry, I've actually always been envious of all the emo, punk rocker, anti social, and non conformist kids. Seriously!!! Unfortunately I can't pull it of now as an adult :-( And I honestly don't know how I got wrapped up in all that mean girl crap anyway (oh I was the quiet one) everyone thought I was stuck up. But actually I was shy and had slight social anxiety!!! Seriously!

So anyway I talked about people and I may have been a little mean, but unfortunately as an insecure teen talking about other people so no one will talk about you is a drug... And I was high on it whenever I was around my friends... sad but true, I was happy to have friends and not be the one they were talking about. I always felt bad about it and I wondered if any of them ever thought twice about any of the things they said or did to people.

Now I'm not going to name things I did or people because I do have a lot of my personal info posted, and I don't wanted anyone seeking revenge. But I do regret it all, I was completely immature and a bitch and I'm sorry. In hinds sight I wish I was every kid I ever ignored, talked about, or just wasn't nice to for whatever reason. I can't take it back now and you probably wouldn't want me as a friend, but just know that if I can do anything right now for you I will. I like to believe I would make a really good friend now :-)

2 comments:

sheri amor said...

ebony? really you were part of the so called mean girls before? really? it doesn't seem like it.. but who knows .. :) still that's a confession. for me.. um when i was in highschool. I was the real quiet and the nerdy one.. since I was always teased by my classmates because I'm ugly for them. But as you know.. time really changes everything.. I grew up.. felt like I've gone out of my shell in college and became opposite from I was before.. and I also envied the popular girls in school

Ebony said...

yea and I too sheri am the exact opposite from what I was in school I have since gained about 25 pounds and can be pretty quiet